It wasn't a broken rib like
I thought Massive growth attached to my ovary A fibroid gone wrong So they took it all out And then some Later they called to say it was cancer. Lesions everywhere. I'm no woman Never was, Never will be Ovarian Fallopian Cervical And screw your appendix Such a long scar Inches upon inches Never healed right Infection Strep Hospitalization Wound care team Intravenous antibiotics Perhaps I could have some morphine? It burned night and day Took four months to heal Now it's as ugly as my sins I deserve nothing Brought it all upon myself Must pay for my transgressions And I'm okay with that So... onto chemo © Doniell Cushman. All Rights Reserved. This poem or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the author except for the use of brief quotations in a review.
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I wanted you to let me go
Instead you held a grudge I wanted you to be a friends Instead you became my enemy (frenemy?) I wanted to tell you how I felt Instead you unleashed your blows I wanted to tell someone, anyone Instead you silenced me with fear I wanted to run away from you Instead you blocked my path I wanted it to just go away Instead your family ran © Doniell Cushman. All Rights Reserved. This poem or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the author except for the use of brief quotations in a review. I heard you have a daughter, is it true?
I can't believe the luck of your draw, What are you going to do? She told me you invited her, of course, she didn't go But she said you also invited K and her kids And they went with the flow You showed up at my house once, I was chatting in my yard I still don't know why I hugged you You fully destroyed my heart Did he intimidate you as you stood staring at me? Did his presence stop your entry? They say you're in the Navy What prompted that decision? If they knew what I know, would they be in opposition? Our paths might have been different But you chose to strongarm And I'm left behind wondering where's my funny farm? © Doniell Cushman. All Rights Reserved. This poem or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the author except for the use of brief quotations in a review. You abuser
I call you out My love meant nothing Once you struck me I now know Let myself grovel for your seeming affection Destroyed my mind And now I'm medicated So many years ago it started Stopped my heart cold So why did I cry for you? This fragility of my world You daily crush And for what? What power do you hold over me so firmly? You abuser © Doniell Cushman. All Rights Reserved. This poem or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the author except for the use of brief quotations in a review. I've got shit stuck in my
head and I have to get it out. I obsess without intention Can't sleep, can't stop I loved him, and he hurt me Why does my mind keep going back? © Doniell Cushman. All Rights Reserved. This poem or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the author except for the use of brief quotations in a review. |
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